Happiness

They say just stop thinking about everything and try to be happy
And I ask what's it like to be happy
They say try to be happy like a child
I say I don't know how a child can be happy
They say just remember yourself being a child
I say that's exactly what I am doing
They say leave your burden behind and you will feel better
I say I don't want to feel better
better is scary
better is unfamiliar
better may give hopes
and I am afraid to be hopeful